Wow. I think I've officially turned a corner in my pregnancy. I am REALLY feeling all that extra weight I've put on. If I sit down for a while, when I get up it's hard to walk at first because my bones in my pelvic and tail bone area feel tight and take a minute to readjust as I start walking around again. It's getting pretty crowded inside with this growing baby and doing everything is getting harder. I hate the idea of getting down to pick up things, because that means I have to get back up! It doesn't help that I'm STILL sick and now it's looking like the rest my family is joining me. There's a lot of sneezing and runny noses going on around here. Blast. At least it's not the swine flu!
Last night my husband was mentioning that it would be a good idea to start thinking about what I'm going to do during labor. You know - have a plan! I need to decide what kind of labor techniques I want to use, and then start practicing them. I also need to get all our supplies. (My midwife gave me a list of what we'll need to have) I realize I need to do these things but I've been so focused on getting the house ready I haven't been taking the time to think about getting myself ready. I think it has a lot to do with the fact that I'm going to be giving birth in my home this time so I want to be able to focus on the labor and not the clutter in the corner or the things I never finished organizing. I just want the space I give birth to be in order so I can feel peaceful, but my husband is right. I have to start focusing on preparing myself and getting the things I need ready, because at this point it could be any week now.
So that's the plan this week; get focused on preparing myself. Hopefully I can still work on the house too, but I'll try to resist the urge to get too involved in organizing and cleaning so I can have time for me. Hey, it's hard to find the balance with my other kids needing me too. I'm working on it. It always comes back to finding the balance in life doesn't it?
PS- I sold my camera lens and am waiting for my new one to come in the mail, so I'm sorry but there will be a lack of pictures until then.
You are in the home stretch now. Just hang in there. It will be what it will be. I always spend a lot of time saying thing have to be done and read and the truth is that the experiences that I am ready for are not any better or worse then the ones that I have a few more things hanging over me for.
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I am so intrigued by the idea of a home birth. This first one will be in a hospital, but I think once I know what to expect I would love to have a baby at home with a midwife! I can't wait to hear how it goes!
ReplyDeleteHey Laura! Lynn Smart sent me the artcile you wrote about deciding to have a homebirth. We met once upon a time in high school when you came to visit her. I would definitely encourage you to get "Natural Childbirth the Bradley Way" By Susan McCucheon? That's not spelled right or work with the hypnobirthing or even hypnobabies info that's out there. Anyhoo, it has lots of scripts and exercises for you and your husband to do TOGETHER. If you make it about you two it will be especially empowering for both parties :-) I've had a very similar experience as you. Medicated birth, natural in the hospital and a homebirth. I'm pregnant with #4 and hoping to another homebirth. I just found a midwife named Laura I'm going to meet next week who sounds amazing! Also, have you looked into waterbirth? I don't EVER want to go back now. It was so wonderful in the water and I didn't tear at ALL!!! Rob delivered our little girl and though he was honestly scrared to death, it was the most amazing experience of his life. E-mail me if ya like. ShannonLovesRob@gmail.com Also, you could check out www.birthnetwork.org and see if there's a chapter in your area. Some groups like ours have monthly meetings and you may be able to meet other moms that have done homebirth too or at least feel the same way about not interfering with a natural process. It's a sacred connection I think. It's nice to have people who understand why you want a homebirth instead of looking at you cross eyed! Good luck!!!
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