It's back

The Netti Pot and I are friends again.

Dang it!

But at least congestion is my only problem.

I really feel pretty good otherwise.

I have a decent amount of energy and not many contractions. They mostly come at night, and they're nothing too serious. I'm hoping it just means I'm dilating.

I can't believe the big day is almost here!

Don't tell, but I started to panic last night thinking about pushing a baby out of my body.

My heart was literally racing!

It's just that once you're in the middle of child birth there's no turning back and that thought started freaking me out. Don't ask me why because I know I can do it. Especially if I've done it with out an epidural before...on pitocin. I never thought last time that I wouldn't be able to do it, so why should I doubt myself now?

I shouldn't.

I don't.

I just had a panicky moment. It's passed and now I'm fine.

I know my body is designed to do this, and with the help of my midwife, husband and some self relaxation techniques, I should be just fine.

All I want is a peaceful, joyful, spiritual experience. I know I can have that. I just need to focus on what I do want to happen instead of what I don't.

My dad feels like I'm going to go into labor on wednesday.

I'd really like it to be on the weekend, but we'll see.

Sorry my posts have been so baby related lately.

I'll try to talk about other things too now and then!

Thanks for stickin' with me.

PS- My son grew into a new shoe size in less than a year! (now he's size 10) He's growing up so fast. *sigh!